Erase This

Notebook names and bleeding ink on the page
Our first kiss came like a bullet  from the gage
Silencing me when my voice longs to reach new volumes,
Barely slipping the note that my lips longed for you,
Our whispers echoed through the heart of me,
Swelled with the blissful idea of you next to me...

Is it so improbable that I wanted to belong to you?
Steel hands lock like chains around my wrist pulling me through,
Holding my breath as I fade into the idea of us,
Squinting my eyes shut as our future turns to slum and disgust,
Suddenly I'm empty and naked and your full of her finger prints,
My eyes awaken to a knife pierced deep into my innocence...
My wrists clutched by sweaty palms, as something to do on the weekend…
Pencil scrawling my final words of 'I love you...' a letter not to send.

And these faint walls pour inward towards me, covered with graffiti in your lazy scrawl...
Your vanity and lies and flickering interest...
My bones begin to crack under the tumbling walls
And as the great wave of you spills to surround me...
My arms reach up but your not looking for me, and I'm drowning…

Notebook names bleeding ink on the page
Haunting past of a pencil's idiocy,
And with my last breath I scream...
Erase this.